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Fearless Find of the Day: Patience Reviews!

Czar tagged me on her wall post regarding the YouTube web series Leaving Bliss (2010) shortly before last weekend’s Tioman Island getaway. Hungry for new stuff to watch on the Net, I checked out its pilot episode and was immediately hooked. 

Then this video you’re seeing right now popped out of nowhere in the sidebar. Patience, the main character of Leaving Bliss, reviews a lot of stuff with the likes of Skittles and Valentine’s Day candy hearts. The surprising thing about the web series and the reviews is that they were produced way back in 2010 - four years ago. I have yet to watch the other episodes, but so far it’s one of those underrated, entertaining videos you don’t really know about until you dig deep into the shore. Thank you Czar for this oldie yet goodie! 

Now for life’s ramblings…

Things Running Through My Head Lately

  • Started watching Sherlock yesterday, and it didn’t disappoint me. Worth the hype. Sherlock’s the man, and so is Watson. I have unfinished business with these following shows and I swear I shall watch them over the break: HIMYM, Skins, New Girl, 30 Rock, Suits. If you could recommend to me any shows to watch, I’d truly appreciate it! 
  • Note to the Detroit Red Wings, Anaheim Ducks, and New York Rangers: you all have one job and that is to knock out the Bruins, Flyers, and Stars out of the playoffs.
  • And to my Penguins, please win the Stanley Cup! Don’t you ever pull a Maple Leafs. Nobody likes to see a depressed fanbase like these fellas down here:

  • I will throw a party for a hundred people if the Charlotte Bobcats win the NBA championship in June. 
  • I’ll blog about Tioman soon. 
  • Pacman wins. Faith in humanity restored. 
  • Guess who just won the Art Ross (scoring champion) by a 17-point margin? You can all walk home now, haters. 

  • Status for the EB Race: still pending!
  • Spending Good Friday and Black Saturday at Johor Bahru once again! 
  • I’ll be saying goodbye to my bum life beginning Monday as I begin my internship for this dance and performing arts school in Bukit Merah. The man I spoke with when I inquired after lunch today even offered me free salsa classes after my work. Ooooh yeaaaah!  
  • I’ll be sharing some of the stuff we do in Comm Arts one of these days including a prized possession - a short film! 

Okay I shall sign off now and revise my literary pieces! 

April 16 at 5:56 PM

Why fit in when you were born to stand out?

“Man often becomes what he believes himself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.” - Mahatma Gandhi 

Apparently you are not meant for your degree program if you can’t be good at something everyone else has mastered. This has been my main point of frustration lately: being at an environment else with 99% of the sample better at everything I do. Everyone can take Pulitzer-calibre photos, shoot films that could put Tarantino and Spielberg to shame, deliver lines with confidence and sans erratic speech patterns, and use words such as “effervescent” in their feature articles. It seems like no matter how much I learn or train myself to improve those skills it’s always likely I’ll get the short end of the stick. 


I feel like a sad Patrick Kane after losing in the Olympics. But in my case, I might have let down everyone who expected me to be a great writer or director. 

One fear I’ve always had since I started majoring is to be the worst in the batch. When I mean worst, as in like a draft bust who got picked over someone better than you. Simply I do not want to be called a scrub for not being better than anyone. I got criticized many times in the past for not exceeding their expectations. I’ve been reprimanded for not getting on others’ mastery. Fortunately, no one ever dared to say to my face that I should not have been accepted in Comm Arts with my current skill set. 

If this batch was a draft class, am I considered a bust considering all the struggles I’ve had to endure in my majors? Imagine if I had every sprinkle of talent handed to me in a snap - sure pass, no doubt about it.

I wish I was better at taking photos. I wish my short films were every filmmaker’s dream. I wish I excelled in writing deep literature. I wish I had bankable ideas. I wish I spoke without stammering. Frankly, I wish I was better in something everyone else is great at even without practice. 

I only ask for one thing: I do not want people to think I’m not good enough to get on their level. 

Am I overracting in this situation? Probably. Besides, I’d rather be a bottom-feeder who’ll slowly be on the top than peak early and decline because I have no steam left. Once I got frustrated from all the pressure I threw down my bag in the hallway and cried. Other than that, there have been times when I cried myself to sleep because my ideas were rejected. I wanted to give up because I felt awful about myself. 

Every time I think of those things, I try to smile and remember this: 

"So let’s not allow ourselves to get fatigued doing good. At the right time we will harvest a good crop if we don’t give up, or quit." - Galatians 6:9. 

Truth to be told, I’ve always struggled to cease my flaw of constantly comparing myselves to other people. Whenever I achieve something good only to see others getting rewarded greater than I do, all the pessimism goes straight to my head. I openly admitted that to my family and friends, and they’ve had the same response: "Be your own person." 

I do not have to be another face in the crowd. I should stand out. I must be proud of what I have and who I am instead of trying to be like someone else. Why be a director if I can write for the screen or publication? One thing I appreciate in Comm Arts is its rationale for its students to be well-rounded in different aspects may it be in radio, print, web, TV, or film. I may not be the best in either camera handling or illustrating, but I am driven to strengthen my points of weakness. I can be good if not better at every other aspect like web design or feature writing, not just in directing films. I should stop worrying about no one but myself. 

And a word of advice of people who measure greatness only through subjective factors like grades, it’s not all about the numbers. Before I forget, I’ve got three words for you…


As for the good news, I’m officially done with the school year. HALLELUJAH!


April 14 at 10:41 PM

Categories: tell em school


WEST COAST. http://lanadel.re/WESTCOAST

April 14 at 9:23 PM

Categories: ear candy

I dislike the phrase “Internet friends,” because it implies that people you know online aren’t really your friends, that somehow the friendship is less real or meaningful to you because it happens through Skype or text messages. The measure of a friendship is not it’s physicality but its significance. Good friendships, online or off, urge us toward empathy; they give us comfort and also pull us out of the prisons of ourselves.

— John Green, “This Star Won’t Go Out” (via watch-out-theres-dan-and-phil)
April 4 at 8:48 PM

Categories: quotes

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